Letters to Luthien

Letters to My Future Bride

The Things That Shouldn’t Be

It shouldn’t have been so mild and inviting today, in the dead of summer.

You and I should have found each other long ago.

I shouldn’t be the last of my kind, and it shouldn’t be so hard to find other guys who have chosen not just goodness but greatness.

Virtue shouldn’t be such a heavy burden, and it shouldn’t be my problem to solve if I am despondent to be the only one bearing it.

When I communicate briefly with someone who once meant a great deal to me, the spark shouldn’t be quite that bright.

I text friends all the time to see how they are doing. I draw them out of themselves and convey my genuine interest in their well-being. Unless they insist I stop asking, I won’t stop asking until they tell me what’s wrong and why, and most of them do. I shouldn’t be the only one who does this to other people. And someone should be willing to do that for me.

Has God taken one of His few remaining warriors and deprived him of the one reward he sought, strived and wept for?

A woman claiming to seek so much and have so much shouldn’t be willing to depart over so little.

Chemistry, virtue, faith, intellect and beauty should not be so impossible to find.

A girl shouldn’t look so wonderful on paper and be somehow undesirable in real life.

Likewise, a girl shouldn’t be so desirable in real life who fails so many criteria on paper.

You shouldn’t have to protect people you care for from yourself, and you shouldn’t have to conceal the truth from people to preserve their feelings.


July 22, 2012 - Posted by | Loneliness

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