Letters to Luthien

Letters to My Future Bride

This Song is Ending; But the Story Never Ends

TheEnd_2Dear Darling,

I have to stop writing here now. The secret is no longer safe, and once found, can’t be hid again.

I shall always remain yours most sincerely,


August 30, 2014 - Posted by | Uncategorized


  1. Just to let you know I will miss your words. Please do reconsider,your writings have been a comfort to me,as I admire you openness to the battles we all face but most keep hidden within. I found comfort in your willingness to wait for the one as I am also waiting on my special someone.Your words helped encouraged me and I am sure many others. David ,do know that you are blessed with your ability to use words and honesty and you can use it for encouraging others.
    Never forget that it is not the mountains that we conquer but ourselves.Keep your FAITH,keep being you ,you were made that way for a purpose,not many stand for the right things in this world.I know how lonely this world can seem when everyone chooses to fit in instead of stand out for Christ.But we find comfort in His word and promises If you ever start back posting or dare I say it not,Thank you!

    Comment by His 1st | September 1, 2014 | Reply

    • Thank you, H1. Anyone who anonymously prints his deepest pains, thoughts and struggles will always design that they be kept hidden from people who know him in the flesh. When those people find you out, violate your privacy and trust, and leave not even one quiet corner of the internet in which a man can be real, or attempt to carve some kind of healing, beauty or purpose out of genuine pain, there’s nothing for it but to conclude the printing and shutter the windows. It’s warming to know some good came of writing, and I’m grateful for you and anyone else who has lurked or commented.

      Comment by BerenEstel | September 1, 2014 | Reply

      • Ditto the first commentor. I’m sorry your circumstances have changed, but this lurker is grateful you kept it up as long as you did. It’s a comfort to know that there are people out there silently fighting the same battles. Best of wishes for your future happiness!

        Comment by S. | September 1, 2014

  2. I know the beauty and importance that having a means to be your true self and yet have your privacy can bring. So sorry your trust and privacy was violated.Talk about it with the person,and don’t let that experience scar you. Find a way to give mercy even when it hurts just the same as we were given mercy by the cross. Just see this as another storm that will get over. Try and find a new way or place to be you,if it truly helps you and means something to you,use your gift of words. Pray about it,He cares about every little aspect of our lives. Take care and don’t give up,Don’t lose your Faith because of fear . Take care


    Comment by His 1st | September 4, 2014 | Reply

  3. Greetings:

    I’ve followed your writing with much interest over the years, as I’ve been writing my future husband letters some my mid-teens (which as of this year, makes that half of my life!). I’ve wondered what you are like in “real life” and what your real name might be. David– beloved– seems to fit you perfectly, to be honest (whatever a stranger’s opinion may be worth! 😉 ).

    I’ve wanted to contact you numerous times over the years as your posts touched or encouraged me, yet those letters were written only in my head. But upon seeing your last posts and feeling the discouragement, I decided to finally reach out to thank you for opening your heart to so many and to hopefully offer you some encouragement in return.

    As previously mentioned, I’ve also been writing my “future spouse” and by now have a box full of letters, photos, cards, notes, articles and tokens from my life over the years he has missed out on as I’ve been waiting for him. At times I’ve been patient, other times– not so much. I have not waited idly, however. I’ve invested time, energy, funds and pieces of myself with family and friends. I have completed college and now have a career helping people, as I work towards returning to grad school for my Master’s degree. I’ve traveled (parts of) the world, ticked items off my bucket list, lost people who prayed and believed with me (and eagerly waited!) that my “One” (technically “Two”, since God is “One”! 😉 ) would come and the wait would be over. I’ve watched friends, relatives and siblings marry and have babies (having had the desire for a husband and children since I was a small child myself) and yet I waited… And wrote my Future Hubby. “Where are you, my love? I’m turning 30– you’re late!” “Another adventure without you.. Can’t wait to finally do life together!” And finally… “Today we buried my little brother. He was only 23. He won’t be able to come to our wedding or hold our babies… Or meet you until we meet again in heaven.”

    And then suddenly, “he” came. And fit into my life as if he has always been there (at least in spirit). We spent the first 4 1/2 hours of our meeting effortlessly talking over coffee– we covered anything and everything. We laughed and joked (and I teased him for playing “footsie” with me, even though the tiny cafe table made foot contact inevitable! 😉 ) — and I knew my life would never be the same. The week after our first “official date”, he spent time with my family and introduced me to his. He fought for my heart and defended my honor. He loves Jesus, faithfully serves at his church, works hard and dreams BIG. Also never married, no kids, minimal life “baggage” and “dents” from life lessons. He checked off items from my “Wish List” as if it was tailor made for him, as if I ordered him and God delivered.

    We have now spent a pretty awesome year together, doing life, learning about each offer and how to better love and communicate with one another. Is it perfect? Not always (two human beings tend to interfere with “perfect”! 😉 Is it everything I’ve always wanted? Nearly (and then some!) Am I convinced this guy is my “One”? I sure hope so (and I expectantly wait for a ring)! But even if he is not… God is big enough to take me through this, also. That much I know. And that conviction makes this life journey– “all good”. After all, we are ultimately waiting for our Heavenly Bridegroom, so waiting for the earthly “love of our lives” is good practice, right? 😉 )

    I hope these late-night ramblings from a fellow “waiter” encourage you. Honestly, if I had known (and truly believed God was/ is big enough and good enough to have such a man for me– I would like to think I would have spent less time doubting and questioning (and yes, at times crying!) — and dating frogs while waiting for the Prince! And I would have lived my life with more peace and confidence… But then I wouldn’t have really known what it’s like to love someone I’ve never laid eyes on and wait for a love I’ve only imagined. So maybe… Things work out as they should, after all. Maybe God really does know best and wants what’s best for us–if only we trust Him. Maybe I’m exactly where and who I should be– and you’re exactly where (and who) you should be. And maybe your “Luthien” is on her way to you, in this journey called Life. And maybe things really will be amazing and totally worth the wait! (And by “maybe”, I mean “definitely”! ;))

    Take heart and press on, Beloved. You will continue to be in my prayers.

    All the best,

    Comment by s3amaid3n | September 17, 2014 | Reply

  4. I only just now have found this wonderful blog of yours and I am in love with your writings and the hope and promise you have for your future!! If you ever decided to come back and write for us once more, I’m sure we would all welcome you with open arms.

    Comment by pirateboness | January 4, 2016 | Reply

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